Ain't I adorable?

Mmm mmm, yeah yeah~ Yo, I'm Austin MaCat!

Twist left, twist right... Voila! 

To the left, to the right.. Yeap! That's it!

Swave~ Put your hands up!!!!!

Go away! Wind, get away from me.. Shoo! Shoo!

Swish.. swash... Yippie! I'm swimming!

The Reason Why I Love (You)

LOVE

People said girl friends always help each other. After the incident, I never really trust anyone especially girl friends (very ironic with other people, right?) Since that moment, I became friends with guys. I mean, boys as based on my perspective, even though boys can be such bad-ass and talking harsh stuffs to me, I still feel comfortable with them rather than girls. (SEGHIOUSLY)

The first two guy friends that I made was Izzul and Sulhi. If I want to describe their physical appearances and compare it with Cleveland guys, I can say that Ahmad resembled Sulhi so much (Sulhi maybe more handsome, but Ahmad is more rich-looking :p). So, if I looked at Ahmad, don't judge that I like him, it just that he resembled so much like my friend.

Moving on, I always shared things with them. And they even listened! They were far better than those fake girls who always talked about make-ups and those underweight girls will understand! As I, being different than others, loved to talk about politics and history at the age of twelve with my guy friends. They were both amazing!

But who says that I didn't have emotional feeling with one of them? Sulhi was basically my elder brother but Izzul... it's complicated. I had a crush on him but he had a crush with Lily and I had to pretend that I had a crush on his friend, Danial, to make that it didn't feel awkward to talk about Lily all the time while I had to ensure that I appeared that I had a big crush on Danial.

Falling...... in LOVE

If we went back in time, The Elites humiliated me in front of Izzul and he defended me. Know that feeling when Prince Charming came to the rescue? Yup, that's how I felt towards him. Anyway, that feeling stayed that way even though during the time interval after Lily, Izzul had a crush on Amalia, Ain Syifaa and Husna Marshofi.

I had a crush on him until I aged fifteen and basically, we were no longer best friends as I confessed to him twice, I think... (wait, maybe it's thrice...ah, I'm not really sure)... and Sulhi, my dear Sulhi, he disappeared from my life when I entered high school.

However, it was fun to be with those guys. Those memories after those pain... made me a better person. But those guys in Cleveland slandered me seducing them whereas I just enjoyed being friends with them (sobs).

So, I would like to express my gratitude to my counsellors throughout this semester:  Zulkifli Anuar,  Ahmad Nasruddin,   Nazrul Haqimi, Zawawi Aziz, Q-me, Iskandar, Ahmad Shafiq, Adam Nazir,  Bazum   and my gifted buddy, Anas Shafawi.

And to other Cleveland guy buddies who didn't have the chance to be my counsellors; Hanif Rawi, Fezree (Zef) and GR[AMMAR]... you guys are fun, too...

P/S: But girl friends in Cleveland are not like those people who made my childhood full of sadness... Zu, Zaimah, Dania, Afrina, Alia are my partners, Ro, too is one of the people that I am grateful to meet with. So far, my life is great with you guys~!

Prepared by, Miss Yoo... 

Never Trust Others

So, after several attempts that I preferred to call as "the building of myself", there was one incident that I remembered the most. It was already seven years since the incident, but I love to share this story and I also have a good friendship (not really, just so-so) with those who were involved with that incident.

I was eleven years old. I was getting taller and was one of the tallest girl in the class. I put a lot of weight too (the beginning of my obese life) and I didn't get bullied anymore. I think I was an okay person. Respected, smart and loveable among my community. Well, the last part is not really a true statement as if I was that loveable, that incident won't happened.

I was being the vice-representative of class at that time. My so-called best friends that was broadly known as "The Elites" named ... (I already forgave them, so let's not put the name, shall we?) were making noises and for those who were born on the 90s will know we had this "L", "P" system, right? So, I was just being fair and just. I wrote their names.

They went mad and they said I didn't respect our friendship. I said that I shouldn't be biased no matter what the situation is. Things happened and suddenly it became eight people against one. And when I looked around, I knew I was alone. I didn't tell my parents because I was afraid that will make my parents worried. Thus, I stayed and endured.

One day, out of the blue, they said they want to apologize. My classroom at that time had two store rooms and one of the rooms was our hangout place. So, to get peace, I went into that room without knowing it was a trap. Suddenly, they locked me in the room and they investigated me; asking me questions, humiliating me... until I can't hold it anymore, I cried.

zzZzzzZ..... Don't trust others... zzZZzZ

They opened the door and there were lots of people standing outside. I remembered their expressions. Izzul, Sulhi and others were saving me from this humiliation. I couldn't stop crying and just hoping that it was just a dream.

Boo hoo hoo... It isn't fair... Stop making cry!!

It wasn't. I still remembered everything clearly. It was so vivid as they said, the more you tried to forget, the more you remember. Now it's over and that incident made me realize that you could never trust other people than your family as those who you trust the most can crush you, can ruin you. So, never trust others, that's all I can say based on my experience.

Prepared by, Miss Yoo... :D

Now I Know Why

Nobody really knows me at all in INTEC. They just know me physically and some visible traits that even strangers will know. I think it's time to tell the world about myself.

I had quite a bad childhood, maybe worse than Rowina's. My childhood is nothing comparable about money, status and intelligence. It was beyond of all.

When I was seven years old, eventually I went to the same school as my toddler friends. Maybe I was just afraid of going to school, so I stick with them. Compared to now, when I was seven years old, I was a very little girl and easy to be bullied. At first, I thought this was what friends do; picking their food containers and carrying their stuffs around. They said, "If you keep wanting to be our friends, then be our slaves.” I wished I had a recorder to record what seven-year-old girl could said to her 'slave'.

Don't bully me... sob sob..

I was scared I will lose something that was so not worth it. But I kept staying close with them. They are rich, smart, beautiful and I was just a ordinary, dull-looking, average girl. The situation stayed like that for about two months (it might be longer because the memory seemed vague now) until my sisters discovered I was bullied. And then it came to the discovery from my mother.

My mother went berserk. She was pissed off. I remembered her red face. I thought she would sympathized me. I was wrong. She did something opposite. She beaten me into pulp and my body got bruised. I thought my mother didn't love me. I had to wear a ton of body powder to cover my bruises. And those bullies just became speechless when they saw what happened to me when they messed up with me.

One problem solved. But since then, I had issues with my mother. And it took a long time for me to know that she did it for my sake. Even though it was no longer common for parents to beat their children to discipline them as to say that it against human rights, it happened to me and I know the effectiveness.

Stop!! Stop making me feeling more depressed than I ever was.... 

It made me realized that no matter how many people protect you, stand beside you, let you fight for yourselves. My mother might overreacted with the bruises and such, but at least I got the message. Nobody is perfect but we have to help ourselves to realize that.

So, status, wealth, fame and everything... don't converse with me if you don't have enough experience. I knew what is what since I was seven-year-old and it will became my wakeup call eternity.

By, Miss Yoo

Sketches of Me

Introducing... The Bloggers!!! [Applause x2] 

Howdy partner! 

'Sup!

Yo!

Whatcha doin'?

...or something like "tat"... *error, it should be "that"

So basically, that is how people converse everyday through their whatsapp, wechat, tweeter, line, or any other social messaging tech. Well, maybe not Howdy partner!, but others. People always use short forms for words when they message someone. I do that all the time. Luckily my message partners know what I'm talking about (Phew).Whatever. Let's get on with The Bloggers' life. 

Maybe I should start off by introducing myself, since my partner is not here. Hajimemashite, watashi no namae wa Rowina desu. 18 sai desu. Anime ga daisuki desu. Kareshi ga ichiban hoshii desu. :P 

Translation: Hello, my name is Rowina. I'm 18 years old. I love anime the most. I really want a boyfriend (you can ignore the last part, though). I am currently a college student studying in a not so well-known college somewhere in West Malaysia. You can guess the place. My friends in college call me by my name, or sometimes by my nickname, Nana. People sometimes say that I look cute. Well, I don't think so because if i do think that I'm cute, wouldn't that indirectly means that I'm a narcissist? So no. I don't think so. I'm just average, with average looks and not-so average height. My height is... short. That's all I can say. However, I'm not really sensitive when people talk about my height, as I accept the fact that I am short. 

A sketch of me................ Just kidding :P
(P/S: I'm not that pretty.. _(._.)_)

My mother once said that if I want to get taller, drink lots of milk. (I know that sounds so cliche) But the thing is I have been drinking milk ever since I was small. I love to drink milk. But I'm still short. So I asked my friends who are tall and they said to eat more. I ate a lot for someone who is small-sized but still I'm short. And so I gave up trying to grow taller and just accept the fact that I'm short. What to do. However, even though I'm short, there's an advantage, too. I still remember vividly the day when I went on a family trip to Penang to visit my sister. On the second day, my family members and I, went to the bird park, where we need to pay an amount of money per entry for each person, except for children - people below the age of 12. As expected, the counter guy asked my little sister how old she is, and ignored me as he thinks that I'm below 12. Hahaha. My little sister is 2 years younger than me, and at that time I was 13 years old. Meaning to say, my little sister was only 11 years old. I laughed so hard at my sister as she was doubted by the counter guy when she was actually below 12 years old, while I was 13 years old. And so the trip ended with me and my little sister entering the park without the need to pay for the fee. That happened years ago, but I still remember it so clearly. 

Recently, I am also mistaken as a high school girl because of my height. Haha. So funny when I'm actually a college student. These are my most recent pictures with Miss Yoo, in my college compound. All the pics contain my face, by the way. Take a look, if you want. :P 

Miss Yoo and I

My friend and I #iCharityRun2014

Love, Nana.

YUME - My Dream

Yume

YUME? What is yume? Yume is a Japanese word that means dream. There are a lot of interpretation for the word "dream".

However, in my case, I see this "dream" as a goal.

In this post, I will be sharing one of the journal entries that I have written in college where this journal entry of mine has something to do with the topic mentioned, which is yume - dream. 

Dreams

Dream is something that all of us need. We need something, like a life goal, to spur us on to continue living in this ever-changing world. “I have a dream,” by Martin Luther King. These are the words that Martin Luther King used in his famous speech against dis­crim­i­na­tion of African Americans. He gave his life for his dream, but in the end the dream came true. As for me, I have dozens of dreams, no, hundreds of dreams that I want to achieve.

In my journal I want to talk only about one of my dreams. I want to talk about my first-in-the-list dream, “Travel to the Land of The Rising Sun - Japan”. I was greatly influenced by the Japan’s animated series, also commonly known as Anime, which made me jotted down Japan as my dream. The anime that I have watched were all really amazing. Scenic landscapes of Hokkaido, picturesque view of the hardworking villagers working in the field, and the simply exquisite mountains that cannot be described by words totally amazed me. Entranced by the wonders of Japan, their cultures, and what-not, I became determined to make “Travel to Japan” my first dream to achieve in my bucketful of dreams.

Japan, as we all know, are known as the Land of The Rising Sun. Japan has four seasons: autumn, winter, spring, and fall. Since I have been living in Malaysia for almost – who knows – my whole life, and as we all can see, Malaysia has only one season and I am not even sure if that could even be counted as a season – monsoon season. Truth to be told, I do not really like living in Malaysia because there are not much things to see in my country, anyway. If I were given a chance, I would definitely choose to go to a four-season country, like Taiwan, America, Korea, or Japan. But my priority is to go to Japan first, then sojourn other parts of the world.

Fujisan accompanied by sakura 

This dream actually requires a lot of sacrifice as I would need lots of money in order for me to go to my dream country. In other words, I want to migrate there. However, there is a catch in doing so, which would be the language barrier. How could I stay there when I do not even have the basics of Japanese? I would not be able to converse with them, what more be friends with the people? Thus, to get over this impediment that stops me from realizing my dream, I must first master their language so that I could get along with the native Japanese. Also, I possess an advantage that would be beneficial to me, and that would be – I have conquered the basics of the Japanese language.

Seriously?
.........Well, yeah.. I know how to speak "broken" Japanese........

I learned Japanese before in my previous university – Malaysia Japanese Higher Education Program MJHEP – although only for one month. However, in that short period of time, I have gained prodigious amount of knowledge regarding my adored country. I had conversations with my Japanese lecturers in Japanese, of course, I talked with them outside of class, and even joke with them. They are truly amicable people, so friendly and lovable. I guess that are also one of the traits that I love about them. There is another way for me to move one step closer in achieving my dream, which would be watching Japanese animation. That could be of help for me to further improve my Japanese skills. In fact, I have been doing so ever since I was in seventh grade – Form 1. Like I said before, I was greatly influenced by the indescribable alluring nature of Japan through anime. Through that, as well, I gained a bunch of Japanese lexicons and it boosts my knowledge of the language, and the country itself.

Natsu Matsuri

                To tell the truth, the main reason why I chose Japan as the country of my heart is actually pretty simple. The truth is I love Japan’s culture. Their traditional clothing – Kimono and Yukata, school uniforms (also known as sailor fuku, which means sailor’s uniform), and there are also the geisha and their food which made me love Japan so much. I simply adore their adorable bento­ (packed lunch) and the onigiri (rice ball). See, there are so many awesome things that one can see in Japan. I just wish that I could brag to the whole world about how great a country Japan is. It has almost everything. The clothes, mouth-watering delicacies, superb festivals like Hana Matsuri – festival that Buddhists celebrate in the shrines, and also sumo (Japanese wrestling), are the paramount attractions of tourists.

Yukata in Harajuku

Sailor Fuku 

Bento

                In general, my dream to “Travel to the Land of The Rising Sun – Japan” is definitely achievable. As I said in my introduction, for every dream to be fulfilled, a sacrifice has to be made. We should always try our hardest and put in an amount of effort to bring to fruition our dreams and goals in life. Like me, I will endeavor to study relentlessly and earn a whole heap of wealth just so I could migrate to my most venerated country – Japan, where all the anime came from. (Tee hee)

My friends and I, during a festival at my college. (Can you spot me?)

From.... Nana-san

Japanese is Fun! 日本語!

Nyan nyan nyan... 

お早うございます！

Translating: Good Morning!

What I'm trying to say is... Are you interested in learning Japanese?

Well, if you do, let me share with you some of my knowledge regarding learning this new language, Japanese. Also, if you wanna learn about Chinese language, Mandarin, I can teach you too. Because, you see, I have been speaking Mandarin ever since I could remember. However, Japanese on the other hand, is not my virtue. I only learned Japanese language for a month, at my previous university before I came to my current university.

So, do you wanna learn Japanese language or not? Never mind, I'll just talk about it anyway. Let's start with the super basic  Japanese language, the hiragana. There are the katakana and kanji as well. But first of all, hiragana is not hard, okay? I can assure you that you will have fun while learning this hiragana (perhaps). So now I'm gonna focus on hiragana first.

Some people think that learning Japanese language is harder than learning Korean language. In my opinion, I have no comment, because I have never learned Korean language before. I only know about Mandarin. To me, speaking Mandarin is like a piece of cake. Japanese language, too is easy to learn and it will be a piece of cake for those who are interested in it. I am one of those who thinks that learning Japanese language is easy. Quite easy, actually.

Hiragana

Hiragana basically looks hard to write; however, after much practice, I am sure one can master this with ease. Even though the alphabets look like scribbles and doodles, they are actually the trade mark of hiragana. These hiragana alphabets also consist of different pronunciation, maybe the way I explain about this may seem quite weird, but here, let me show you.

Special hiragana (not really special, but I call them special)

You see, isn't learning to write hiragana easy? Oh, if it's not easy, please don't curse and swear and me... (Tee hee) But as you all know, "Practice makes Perfect". That is kinda cliche, but i think that it is applicable to this situation of learning a new language, Japanese.

Cute picture, eh~ kawaii desu ne~ 

For more info, please surf this link: http://www.yosida.com/en/hiragana.html

Truly, Nana!

Boy Band

Music bands / boybands that looked like fallen angels and great music composition could just make our hearts melt. Personally, there are many boy bands that I really love. Let's make a poll then... But I know I will be completely bias. Oops.. I did it again!

10. Backstreet Boys

Okay, this is really my favorite when I was a little girl. Hearing their songs "Incomplete", "Inconsolable" and "Straight through My Heart" really shifts my mood to be a little bit hyped when I am feeling low. They are my all-time favorite! But they all got married anyway... Hmmph, no more dreams to be a Mrs. from them~ :p

9. OneRepublic

They are not really handsome, right? But their music.. Dang! With those epics like "Apologize" and "Counting Stars", those who dislike them are crazy. Do you hear me, I say YOU'RE A MANIAC IF YOU HATE ONEREPUBLIC. Btw, the vocalist name Pete date Jennifer Lawrence. So, you can't say they're not wanted. Gifted guys are always needed!!!

8. The Script

Check their new song, "Superheroes", then you'll know what I'm saying...

And they're cute~~~~

"The Man Who Can't Be Moved" is also one of my favorites. The song is so relaxing~~ And also "Breakeven". Check it out please!

7. The Wanted

First of all, they are super-cute. Second, they have good voice. But I no longer hear them. Why the freaking WHY???

6. Maroon 5

Obviously, I love Maroon 5 (check out previous post where I put them with the legends). 

"This Love", "Never Gonna Leave This Bed" and their latest song, "Animals", love all of them. And I admire they try to make their album covers be like The Beatles'. See why I love them?

5. Train

The older you are, the more awesome you'll become. That is so true for Train! Kyaaaaaaa, love them a lot. My favorite is "40 Ways to Say Goodbye". They got song titled "This Love" too! And it is super awesome~~~

4. fun

I just love their music. The band is having alternative rock genre. What I can say is pure awesomeness~!!!!

1) We Are Young

2) Carry On

3. Muse

 

"I Belong To You" and "Supermassive Blackhole" are songs that are from the Twilight Saga OST and both are their songs! Who cares, I just love the music. Vote for The Muse!!!

2. Imagine Dragons

Three of their songs are on the top of the Billboard for far too long. "Radioactive", "Demons" and "On Top of the World" are all my favorites. Lol, why do I have so many favorites? Nah, just love their music.

and no. 1 goes to...

1. Boys Like Girls

Me, fan-girl-ing _(.___.)_

Okay, it is not my attention to put ONLY the vocalist's picture but somehow... situations happened. "Two Is Better Than One", "Love Drunk" are just the songs that I really love during my adolescence. But my favorite "Be Your Everything" is my no. 1 favorite. Long live BLG!!!

What about your favorite bands, then? Do share!

Prepared by Miss Yoo

Ignorance is bliss. But not to me!

Interested in finding out about me? 

So, if you are interested in finding out my identity, well, why not I just share with you all about myself! Actually, I've pretty much talked about my hobby, which is at being an otaku (See previous post). Maybe some of you are not interested in knowing me at all, but I still appreciate your kindness in continuing reading my post. Let's get going then! Well, Rowina is my given name, but my family members tend to call me Nana.

Hence, I want to share about my life as an elementary school kid. As a child,  I was really weak, with petite body, and I rarely talk, at all. I didn't even know how to write my own name, in Chinese characters, of course. You see, I've been studying in a Chinese-medium elementary school for 6 years, From grade 1 to grade 6. I continued taking up Chinese language classes for 2 more years in secondary school and stopped in the third year. You could say that I am really fluent in Chinese language (mandarin) as well. Well, maybe not as fluent as those who took up Chinese classes for 11 years, but I have an advantage because I know how to speak mandarin. Let's not talk about that now. Continue on from where I left just now. Even though I didn't know how to write my own name, my teacher was kind to help me to write my name every time, not every time actually, just almost.

But then, I wanted to learn to be independent, so I tried to write my own Chinese character name. It took me quite a while to write my own name; however, I didn't regret it at all. And thus, I grasped the knowledge in writing my own name!  Even now, I still know how to write my own Chinese character name. Oh and, after that, now that I knew how to write my own name, I started to catch up really fast in my classes regarding learning the new language, mandarin. However, I was not the best. My classmates were all brilliant and bright students. There was this one particular girl, who was very clever, she liked to, you know, get the teacher's heart or attention, as the Chinese people say, na lao shi de xin. I simply didn't like her, but not to the extent of hating her, though. Maybe it was just pure jealousy, I guess.  Until now I still don't like her. She completely overshadowed me in class. Even though I was better than her in English language class, people will just ignore me and went to her saying that, "Wow! You did great! You're the best in our class! Congratulations!" Whereas I, who was a better student than she was, got no praise at all, except from my parents, of course. I told my parents about my problem with this "genius", they just told me to be patient and wait as the time will come for me to shine. And so, I waited patiently for my time to shine. BUT! It did not come at all! 

"Go away, u b***h..."
P/S: Awwwww... he's soooooooo cool!!!!

Furthermore, my teachers in elementary school also seemed to not notice of my achievements. They will just flock around her, like she's a princess or something. She kept on annoying me. Actually, she and her little sister. This annoying girl, has a younger sister of the same age, who was born in the same year as us in late December. You could say that both of them are like polar opposites. The elder sister was the so-called genius, while the younger one was the mischievous one. However, both of them were still as annoying as hell as they kept on getting the teachers' attention. It's not like I couldn't do that (getting the teachers' attention), it's just that I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to stoop so low as to get the teachers' attention. Also, these two siblings are extremely rich, well, their parents are, actually. 

And so, that was how my miserable elementary school life was. Imagine, I had to spend my whole 6 years with those spoiled brats who know nothing of poverty, who keep on showing off their new gadgets; whereas me, I have nothing of those sort. I only have my daily allowance of 20 cents per day that my mother gives everyday to buy some sweets. Not to mention, there was even this girl, who literally "borrowed" money from me and never returned! It was only 20 cents, but to me, with this 20 cents, I could buy some food to fill my stomach with. That 20 cents girl was also in one of the "brilliant " students' group whose parents are super rich. Now that I think of it, I didn't really enjoy my elementary school life. 

However, there was rainbow for me, too. I did made some good friends out of  my miserable elementary school life, and scored a really good UPSR result: 5A2B (I scored Bs for my Chinese language. Yay!). You see, even without the praises of those teachers, I still managed to get such good results, if I must say so myself. By the way, I didn't have any tuition classes throughout my elementary school life.

Me, studying my brains out! _(._.)_ 

Another significant thing to talk about is that, in my PMR, I scored straight As, whereas the girl who striped me off my own money (the 20 cents girl) did not. So I thought to myself, "that is what you get for cheating on my money, huh." And in SPM, the annoying girl, who was supposedly a "genius", scored less A+ than me. 

Okay, I guess that's all from me, for now. I think I'm gonna talk about my secondary life in the next or future post! I hope I keep my word. By the way, have you figured out what race I am to begin with? 

Love from, Nana!

A Song That Gives an Impact to Me

The song that gets the rap is "The One That Got Away" from Katy Perry. The song is about a girl that lost her boyfriend after having fight with him. She gets old and still regretting the mistakes that she made towards him. The best way to remember him is by regretting it. 

So, why this song gives an impact to me? It's not like I'm having a boyfriend that die because of me. I mean, not yet because we don't know the future, right? So why?  It is because the song makes me appreciate things that in front of me. I'm not talking about my love stories, I'm talking about my life. The song makes me live this life at the fullest till I can feel that the world is mine. Most of you think that I'm crazy and lunatic because I look like I am so proud about myself. Actually, I'm not. I just want to feel everything that I can feel because life is not going to be this way all the time. If I don't start to do this thing now, is that a guarantee that I will do it later? No, right? So, this song makes me do everything so I won't regret it later.

So, we know the song is all about the girl's dead boyfriend. if you watch the video clip, you will see that even though she really loves her dead boyfriend, she still married with another person. Meaning, she is moving on. So, this song tells that even though you are having the tsunami of your life, you must moving on. or else, how can you heal the wound? I mean, regretting is a good thing because it makes us judge ourselves but at the same time, we must moving on! So, it gives me a positive mind to move on even though is not a guarantee that I will be fine.

Then, what more? Yeah, the song also tells me that I have to be responsible for what I have done. Things like when you have things to say to a person. the things that gives impact to you, perhaps such as a confession. Well, let's break the ice. this thing I had been through. I was in a motivation program and the teacher as an open question. The question was, English language is also known as... in my mind I knew the the answer. The answer is international language, right? But, at last, I didn't answer it. so, I paid the price for being such a shy kid. So, you see, I don't blame anyone else. because I knew it's my fault not to speak up my voice. Just like the song, the girl never tell her feelings to her boyfriend. I mean, she never confess. If you are in the boyfriend's shoes, would you know the girl's feeling? No, right... So, responsible to the things that you make. Don't blame other people.

Oh my, can't you guys see this song makes a better me? So, it's worth if you heard what I talked just now. So, you can be in the top of the world like I feel, moving on to your problems like I have done and responsible to your actions like I'm trying to do. See? This song gives impacts to me right? As a conclusion, the most important thing is to not taking things for granted till you lost the thing you love the most so that you don't have to say, the one that got away.

Prepared by Miss Yoo